To risk it all.

This my first post in 2015 about my life...

A lot has changed in the last 12 months, my new year's resolution from 2013 year took longer than expected, only coming true in 2015.

Since I was a young boy I have dreamed and hoped for this. I clawed my way here, I shredded my existence over and over again to be here, to be allowed, to be free, to truly show my potential.
I cried, I suffered, I learned. I leaped into the unknown, I evolved, I opened my mind.

I can't recall when it was, I can't recall if someone said it to me or if I read it somewhere, but the phrase "If you love what to do you won't have to work a single day in your life" echoes in my mind.

It has been a long journey, full of struggles and barriers, but I enjoyed every last bit of it. I still do, because even though I reached what I had dreamed of I'm not stopping, the adventure continues.

I look back at the people that inspired me,that molded me into being. From the amazing father figure to my closest friends, all of them had a role in my story, all of them were part of it and will continue to be. You showed me how to think, how to act, how to be the person I dreamt of being for so long.

I look back and all I can say is thank you, thank you for being there, for believing in me, for trusting me, for teaching me, for making it possible for me to get here.

I'm finally where I wanted to be, in a place where I can constantly explore, where I can constantly learn, where my actions speak louder than my wallet, my diploma or my status.

I'm in a place where I can meet amazing people, from different backgrounds, with different ideas, with different beliefs but that share a open minded approach to the world.

I'm in a place where I can explore my mind without being classed has a pretentious bastard, a know it all, someone that tries to outshine everyone else.

I'm not in it for the glory, for the fame or for the money, I'm in it to win. To win against myself, to break my limits, to evolve and perhaps to give meaning to a meaningful world.

I had to evolve to get here, I've cut the chains of the past without forgetting my mistakes, I let go of my fears without becoming fearless, I have risked it all when I had everything to lose.

But instead of losing it all, I gained it.

The chance to challenge myself and the ability to take on that challenge without weights on my back.

They took the chains of my wings to see how far I can fly, I'll show them exactly that my limit is only where I let it to be.

Similarly different.

We're different you and I.

We will always be different. Although you may think we share the same experiences, the same thoughts the same way of life, We're different.

My life is my own, my ideas are my own, my principles are my own.
I'm not normal nor am I abnormal. I'm special just like everyone else. The way you look at life, what works for you, the way you think is different and unique, just as everybody else.

I don't need your guide, I don't need your views, I don't need your advice let alone your orders.
No rule is set in stone, nothing is mandatory there is no universal way of life.

I see different beliefs, different people everyday, I've seen more diversity in the world than the majority of the population will ever see. I watch, I ponder, I wonder. I do not impose, I do not criticize, I do not look down from my proverbial horse.

You're not better than me, I'm not better than you.

People spend to much time trying to control what wasn't supposed to be controlled. They are too afraid to follow themselves, they are so afraid to be themselves that they try to shape others to best suit their liking.

This doesn't work, this will never work.

We are individually unique, a non repeating sequence of mentality's that may share some likeness but will never diverge.

I don't like control, It's unnatural. I believe in a chaotic amalgam following a pattern that far exceeds human comprehension. A cluster of specs, seemingly alike but fundamentally unique.

So pay attention, understand your surrounding, share your knowledge do not impose it, advise when asked, respect when applicable.
Adapt, evolve, realize.


“Don't follow in the footsteps of the ancient masters; seek what they sought.” (Matsuo Basho)

Live your life your own way, do what makes you happy, what makes you tick. Know what you love, know what you hate. Understand that we are all different, and that in the end, that's what makes us normal.

What a small world.

Lately we have been living ever more in a digital world, with all the social media and the growing internet access through out the globe, the place no longer feels small.

We create these internet personas and try hard to reflect our life the best we can in that digital canvas. We communicate with people we never met, we make good friends online, share tastes, dilemmas, sometimes we even fall in love.
It's astonishing what we can do through this portal, the things we can see and do without even leaving our chair.

I love this power and what it enables me to do. From meeting someone amazing, that I only know through my computer screen, to discovering a new band that otherwise I would probably never ear.

It enables me to travel everywhere and never lose communication with all of my friends, it makes my life easier because I now have access to all I ever wanted to know, right in the palm of my hand.

For instance I met someone through a chat application from a country I never visited, and yesterday we spent 4 hours talking over Skype. This week also I stumbled upon a great band from Australia on twitter, and because nowadays we have access to so much i could enjoy their new album in seconds with just a few clicks on my mouse.

It really is funny how small the world is now a days and how this power shortens even the smallest distances. And I'm really hoping that by making the world small we can forget our differences and start behaving more like a group.

And by the way in case your wondering if I was involved in illegal activities to get that album.


The band has their latest album available for free on their page, so check out The Sunpilots follow them on Twitter, they're touring over Europe now so if you like good music download their album and buy a ticket for their show, they're really good.

Another chapter

I'm different...

No one told me but I can feel it...

The way I move, the way I talk, the way I live, it changed somewhere in Africa.
I'm no longer the same person I was before, no longer bent by life. It's like I was reborn after all I saw and felt.

I feel confident, clear minded and above all Africa taught me how to make do, taught me how to adapt quickly, how to gather information to prepare myself for all the challenges. Africa made me a modern day Macgyver.
And I don't feel heavy anymore, I feel light, like I'm swiftly passing through all the barriers I encounter in my way.

I'm happy... happier than I have ever been. Finally I found the thing that truly makes me smile. that warms my heart and makes everything seem easy.

I've been courting lady luck for so long and she finally smiled back.

This chapter is starting so great, and Murphy can kiss my ass, because this time nothing will take my mood away.

My new home came as a big surprise, friendly people all around, maybe I attract them now I don't know, found an amazing place to live, close to everything and already made some friends around town.

Of course having money for all of this helps, but I don't know things just feel different, I don't feel nervous, I don't feel afraid, I feel at home already and this is only my third day here.

My mind is more at ease than ever, a nirvana state of mind, following my mind where ever she takes me and loving every second of it.

Sou Português

Sou Português…

Mas comunico em Inglês, virei as costas ao meu país, abandonei a areia banhada pelo Atlântico para rumar a um destino incerto.

Deixei para trás a família, os amigos, os amores e os dissabores desta lusitana que me viu crescer. Fui a procura de algo mais.

Fui em busca de novos horizontes, criando ligações, travando amizades, vendo algo nosso a cada esquina.

Sou Português, mas não um traidor, tenho orgulho no meu país, nas suas tradições e costumes, nesta gente bem-disposta que vive do lamento. Tenho orgulho no fado, no vinho e na saudade.

Abandonei o meu país, não pela sombra que o envolve do Algarve ao Minho, mas porque carrego em mim o espirito de outrora. Ouço os gritos de ontem que me lançam o desafio, os antepassados que me empurram para fora, que criam em mim o fascínio pelo desconhecido. Impulsionam-me para longe, para descobrir o que já outros conhecem mas para mim é novo.

Sou Português e falo em Inglês, porque sei que não a é a língua que nos define, mas sim o espirito, a coragem, o sofrimento, a alegria.

Vou correr o mundo, espalhar a saudade que é tão nossa, sacrificar-me pela vontade de viver. Vou com um sorriso no rosto, mas a lagrima escondida.

Vou para longe, perder-me nos encantos do mundo, mas mesmo sem bússola hei sempre de encontrar o caminho de regresso.

Porque sou Português, e por mais que corra, a saudade sempre aperta.

My path

The path I've chosen
Seems like a fairytail
Sometimes it leaves me broken
But in the end I always prevail.

Words cannot explain,
they get lost in the sound of my scream.
Mixed in with the tears, the blood and the pain.

They get trapped in my smile
Chained in my chest, caught in the limelight.

My head keeps spinning,
my spirit changing,
and even though i'm grinning
my tears keep fading.

I kept my hope,
held her tight against my chest,
until the past became just a simple note.
Locked away with the rest.

It wasn't easy, fighting everyday,
But I kept smiling long past the final play.

And after all the moments
After all the good and bad
I still feel the good omens,
Hanging around in the air

The thrill of the challenge
still keeps me awake at night
dreaming of the next adventure,
Still strong with my path in sight.

My heroes

My heroes, the ones that inspire me, those that touch my life without even knowing. I see them everywhere, I see them on T.V, on my computer screen, on the pages of the book I'm reading, even while I'm living my life.

They are the ones who took the clay, shaped it, breathed in courage, inspiration and determination and molded me into what I am.

My thirst, that thirst that makes me forget everything and try and quench it, it's because of them. I hear them speaking with me everyday, whispering in my ear while my music player composes a masterpiece, song after song.

I found hope in them, I envisioned for me what I saw in them, dissecting all the aspects and gluing everything together as it felt natural to me.

My heroes, are faceless, a mix of personalities that reflect what I want to believe, what i feel makes sense.

My heroes are to many to tell, they come and go, new ones arriving old ones fading away in my mind but never leaving.

My heroes are the ones who believe, not in the supernatural, its about faith but not in fairy-tails.

It's about those who face reality, challenge the rules, those that can't be broken, those that don't comply.

You see them to, the ones that are odd, that you sometimes can't quite understand, that puzzle your mind with their presence. But deep down you know, you wanted to follow them to, they are my heroes but they can be yours to.

Let them inspire you, mold you like they did me, you're path is surely different from mine, but its never about the finish, it's always about the journey, and in the end, if you listen, you will realize that the thing that scared you at first, was nothing more than dim light in an empty room.