Shine no matter how far you are.

I lay awake to watch the stars, casually wondering what they are.
The night feels lonely, it's silent, cold and dark. But the stars are there, shinning, very far away but still shinning.
I'm excited for what's to come, a new beginning, a new stage, seems like my life is full of those. I stopped counting, but with each move I become a little bit bolder.
I wanted to travel and see the world, constantly changing, meeting new people, making new friends. Perhaps I'm running, for responsibility, from the prison cell that hold me back home. Perhaps that was what made me leave, but somehow the purpose has changed along the way.

It's lonely... Always moving, always running, no matter how many people I meet I always end up leaving them, going on a new adventure leaving the past behind, not completely but in some sense it's never the same again.

The first time I moved I didn't do it alone, I had someone with me to share the burden and the sadness. We helped each other to surpass the difficulties of our choice. But in time, we changed, our goals were to different, we set apart and I did what I though was right, I moved away again...

That time I did it alone, but everything was taken care off, a nice job, a room in a house full of people that could help me with any trouble I might have. And for a time it was nice, but as much as someone can feel at home in a place like this, I knew from the beginning I didn't wanted to stay, I wanted more...

So I left, found a new job and I'm preparing for the change. This time I will be truly alone, in a place I know little about. But that doesn't scare me, as much as I fear loneliness I also love the challenge, the opportunity to get to call home a completely new place.

Ill meet new people, make new friends but Ill never forget the old ones, they are like my anchor, my rock. Because I know they're there I can leave, travel, see the world and come back to visit them anytime I feel lonely or sad.

The sky is filled with stars, each one of them unique, just like my friends, and no matter how far apart we are I know they will continue to shine even on the nights I can't see them.

So here alone I stare the sky, looking, wondering, feeling lonely but happy, knowing that no matter how far I am there is always a light shining.

To hell and back.

Sometimes life has a funny way to express itself. One day she will give us a heart-warming punch in the face and on the next day a gentle caress that shreds us to pieces..
This year my life took a turn for the worst, unemployed with the promise of a chance across the ocean, completely broke and falling into even more debt. Well a year has almost gone by and knowing what I know now I had no reason to worry. I ended up in a place were civilization barely exists, with a big pay-check but frozen in time, watching the lives of my friends unfold on my computer screen. Well at least I was making money now.

Yes i had money now, but I was still despaired, I couldn't take this place like this for to long. It's funny how, on the day when I finally was obliged to sever ties to a past that gets ever so further from the present, my future unfolded right in front of my eyes.

Like a ray of bright light my path open up finally, and it matters not what choice I take from this moment, my life will get better either way.

Of course I wasn't just waiting for this to happen, I was trying with all I had, constantly searching, constantly fighting for a solution, well turns out all of my hard work paid off finally, and I'm one step closer to finally reach the goal i set myself up to two years ago.

Another stepping stone has gone by and I'm looking forward for the new challenges and people Ill meet during my adventure.

So, if I'm allowed a piece of advice, grab the controls of this game, and try to do what makes you happy, you may not get there soon, but if you truly keep trying you will reach your destination instead of fading away on a couch in front of the T.V screen.