I wish

I wish I could enchant you with my words, that I could put down in paper my soul, strip me down of all the masks and show me, naked, crude, raw…

I wish the letters I write would form a lullaby, one that carries you into a gentle sleep, where dreams are made, desires come true and everything is in your reach.

I wish I could change the world, just by saying. Command the rivers and flows of our nature just by whispering.

I wish…

I wish I could win against the odds, swiftly through the battlefields of reason. Marching down against the armies that oppose me, taking down word after word, text after text.

I wish I could hold your hand and make us fly into the moon, just by composing a symphony with every keystroke on my keyboard.

I wish I could make you laugh, see the world in my eyes, make you get lost inside me, deeper and deeper in my soul.

I wish…

I wish for tomorrow here and now, a time where I could make you mine, a time where I could be yours.

I wish for happiness, for joy, for sadness, for true beauty in a simple piece of paper.

I wish for everything and nothing at all. I wish without wishing because in my wish, in my words, in my humble lines…

The only thing I wish is you.

Hi mom, I'm here, always, even if I'm not around...

I have a curse, an undeniable desire to travel, see the world, learn, grow, laugh, cry, live.

It's a curse because even though sometimes I try I am unable to be by your side, physically for to long. But I'm always here, even though sometimes you cant see it. I'm here.

I love to travel, meet new people, enjoy the only chance I have to live, because even though you are afraid, the truth doesn't change. We have one chance, one life, one opportunity to live here, now and be happy.

Because I was away for some time, I learned how to love this place even more. I love Portugal, I love the people, the amazing places, the language, the food. I love to many things to be able to list them all.

Yesterday while I listened to a song that if I didn't knew better I would say it was written thinking about me, I heard the lyrics, I'm going, but I wont rest until there is change here.

I love this place.

And I love my mother, a simple mind, a simple person, that just wants to smile.

I experienced a lot of things during my 28 years in this life, but nothing feels my heart with joy more than to see my mother smile, like a child when they receive a lollipop.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for leaving you, for wanting more than this here. I'm sorry for leaving you alone for so long, to have gone in search of my happiness while you stayed behind. But I need to, I have to.

In this day, equal to all the others, I choose to say I love you, not because I have to but because I want to.

You are in my heart, always, when i'm crying, laughing, exploring, living...